When was the last time you felt truly authentic? Not just real, but vulnerable. Raw. Exposed.
Better question: have you ever?
Authentic – not false or imitation : real, actual : true to one’s own personality, spirit, or character
This experience is relatively new to me. From a young age, I mastered the art of playing the “part” I thought I was supposed to play. I taught myself to live according to the unspoken standards that I had somehow determined were expected of me. My life would be perfect, as long as I said the right things, maintained the right image, got the right job, married the right person, etc etc etc…
Relentlessly pushing myself to be someone I’m not, I didn’t even realize I was lost. I believed the constant pressure, anxiety, and stress was normal…that this is how “normal” people become successful. Not only did I have to do everything, but anything less than perfection was unacceptable.
Everything crashed when I started examining why I felt so lost beneath my chipper exterior. Thoroughly examining my life, I came to realize that I’d never truly asked myself what I want. Even worse, it never occurred to me to ask for what I need. That voice was buried so deeply, I couldn’t even hear it.
Layer by layer I’ve begun to peel off the image I spent 28 years constructing. I asked the hard questions and waited, (im)patiently, for the answers I didn’t even know how to find. I searched for my authentic self, terrified to truly get to know the “real” me. Even more terrified to let other people experience that version of me. Breaking down my walls meant leaving myself open to other people’s judgement. Trusting people and allowing myself to “need” them invites the possibility of betrayal. Heartache. Loss.
Authenticity isn’t safe. It requires trust. Vulnerability. It requires a certain level of confidence that being honest about who we are, what we want, and what we need is always better than playing a role. Because of this, authenticity is empowering. Imagine a life of freedom, where being exactly as you are, without judgement, shame, or fear, is an every day occurrence.
Someone once told me “vulnerability breeds vulnerability.” As many of you know, my adventure out of corporate life and into the health and wellness world is new for me…so I want to start on the right foot.
I’m choosing to be authentic rather than perfect, vulnerable and honest rather than closed off and unapproachable. I’m choosing to empower my life with truth and freedom, and through that I hope to empower yours too.
I turned my life around because I believe that all the shit I’ve experienced can be used as a lesson for someone else. My hope? To save you from the same pain I put myself through. And maybe even to bring more awareness to an industry and lifestyle that feels daunting and unattainable for most people. Its time to stop trying to be who we’re supposed to be and start embracing the amazing people we were created to be.
In my experience, there’s always someone who can relate to what I’m going through, so my goal is to write…here and often. I’d love to hear from YOU though…questions, comments, stories, topics. Let’s be friends ❤️ No seriously…
Ps – check out this week’s schedule! I’d love to have you in class!